I'll make it through another day

Walk away or stay.. I really don't know

If I walk away I'll be another disappointment

If I stay my energy is sucked thinking of the unknown 

Will this actually work out some day? Someday! someday can be today, I keep telling myself, still it's not happening..

It's things like this that are not controlled by subconscious mind

It'll need the power of two 

Do I read the right signals? Or do I read the signals I want?

I don't know anymore..

As impatient as I am, I just want to know. Know what's next.. If it'll actually happen.

I'm not being fair to myself..

If I were to be I would be so bad

I'd show no care and make you mad 

It's like I have to make a choice

I will be sad and you'll rejoice

Or maybe then I will be glad

And you will think "a perfect lad!"

But that's not in my hands to do

It'll be real if you're in too

Other than that it's all just tales

Between me and myself prevail

When late at night it feels so real

Then I wake up and "damn" I feel

I'll make it through another day

A year of no writing

A year of no writing 

It feels like you have a lot to say but you can't put it to words 

Let's just say that in a year you feel like a completely new person 

A person who's following his heart desires. Living, loving life and enjoying everything life has to offer

You miss a lot of times with the family yet you feel closer to them than you've ever been. As if you need to walk away from everything just to find that there is a part of you that's still there and will forever be.

Family friends and the people I've met

Once you walk away you can never forget

All the times you spent, and the fun you've had 

Looking back at it all I cannot be more glad 

True I miss and sometimes reminisce 

On the good old days, others that I diss

You appreciate the good when you experience the bad 

Looking back at it all I cannot be more glad 

One day I'll look back, at the life the I've led

And be so proud of what I've done and said 

Be the change I wanna see even if it looks mad

Looking back at it all I cannot be more glad